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Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Spring has sprung!

April is almost gone, and so is FINALLY (almost) all the snow!!
I guess we can say that spring is here.
These little yellow flowers are all over the place (they look like tiny dandelions), and the kids are picking them and filling glasses and cups with beautiful bouquets.
The kids have so much fun outside this time of year.
Melting snow, water, mud and sand.
What else do you need for hours of fun?
I don't especially like the mess they drag inside, (sand is all over the place), but it's worth the time they spend outside.
And why buy outdoor clothes if they can't use them and get them dirty??

3 youngest hanging out.
Playing Angry Birds on my phone...

sign of spring!

At first it sure looks gray and drab,
but when you take time to look,
there are so many beautiful colours out there!

We have had a nice and busy month, and this whole winter we've all been quite healthy.
Some little colds and sniffles, but nothing major.  Thankfully!!

2 of my "BFF's" from home had baby boys two days apart!
I talked to one of them, and she and her new baby were doing well.
I so wish I could be there now and see their new little once...

Lately I've suffered some homesickness, more than I have in the past.
Maybe it's because I have had some time to think about friends and family back there.
When you go through a big change there are different stages you go through as well.
First the stress and anxiety of leaving everything you know and is familiar with, behind.
Then excitement and enthusiasm about all the new. You tend to see all the good in the new situation, while the things you weren't too pumped about in the past is still fresh in your mind.
It's kind of like falling in love, your mind is a bit numb and you can only see all the good stuff.

Right now I'm in the next stage when you start to get a more realistic view of the new (not in a bad way), and I'm starting to miss many things from home.
I'm weighing good and bad here compared to there.
Not sure what to make out of it.
I guess I don't have to make anything out of it at all, just let the feelings flow, and see what developes.
I am realizing thou that I feel more and more Canadian!
I was born in Sweden, and lived there for 22 years, so while I still feel "at home" in Sweden (after almost 15 years away), I don't feel very Swedish anymore.
My kids aren't Swedish, my Hubby isn't, I've been there 6 times since I moved from there, and I don't feel any desire to move there, although I love to visit there, of course!!
Living here I feel my Hubby's roots.  He's finnish and our kids are through him.
My dad is too, but growing up I was in Finland only a handful of times, and even if I now live here, I can't say I "feel" Finnish.
The one thing we all have in common is that we all are Canadians!
I used to have a hard time refering to Canada as "home", (since I don't have any family history there) but the longer I am away from there, the more I realize that Canada is the country that feels most like home.

Well.  It's good to think and ponder these things I guess.
And time will tell what happens.
Of course my feelings might change, and in a year I might feel very different, but when we left North America I was really worried we wouldn't return after 2-3 years as originally planned.
I don't feel as worried any more, as I now see how well we have it here, but at times I wonder....
Where should we be???


Kultakutri said...

Jag kanske förtor lite vad du menar. Jag längtar hem just nu så mycket! Att vara med släkt och mina syskon. Förresten, dom där gula blommor heter "Leskenlehti" på finska. Riktiga vårblommor!

sohvia said...

I know the feeling! When I'm in Finland, I'm Canadian, and when I'm in Canada, I'm Finnish. But it's all in a good way, and it shows us how small this world is.
I think you're due for a visit though! We all miss you here!! xoxo

Sofia L said...

The flower is called COLTSFOOT in English. Miss it up here.... still got lots of snow, even though it HAS been melting away a lot lately.

Yeah, I totally hear ya about being homesick. BEARHUGS from me!!!

LOVE the pic of the 3 youngest playing Angry Birds! <3

Mari said...

Hi Kaisa and ALL the flowers, including the 40-year old!
After 37 years in this country I still don't feel Canadian, so what is wrong with me? (I know it is a lot, meaning things wrong with me).
Yeah, I still thrive on Pantteris and Geisha chocolates for which I thank you very very very much. They were consumed NOT very slowly (A bag is a few mouthfuls for me in a couple of hours.) Thankyouthankyou!

MeWoman said...

Mari! I'm glad u liked the sweets :-) and I don't think there's anything wrong with You, but maybe Canada isn't where u feel most at home. Liking different things doesn't mean right versus wrong or good versus bad, it just means "different". That's all. I can very much c how u feel more in ur right element in Finland . For the same reasons that make me feel not in the right element... Growing up in Sweden I was also outside of the "normal" frame, while in US and Canada I feel more like the rest! I'm happy for u that u now days have the opportunity to go to Finland quite often. Looking forward to seeing u soon! Xozo Kaisa

Sofia L said...

...and I have settled with the thought that I'm a Finn-Swede living in Norway...with quite a crush for the USA and Canada. Norway IS ''hjemme'' after 7 yrs here, but Sweden will ALWAYS remain as ''hemma.'' And I still DO have a home in the States too. But after moving back and forth 19 times, I guess Sweden IS closest to my heart. :)